Recently I released a grandiose layer of fear. In doing so I realized that this is quite an onion I've got going here; it must be a Walla Walla Special. An onion of infinite layers, which has the tendency to make my eyes water and whose stink makes my toes curl.
First let me explain what I refer to when I speak of releasing fear based beliefs. Several years ago I began a self-exploration of all of the agreements, habits, practices, beliefs and actions that I have embraced over the years while on my spiritual path. Slowly I began to realize that attached to several of these items was a deep, sometimes undetectable idea of not being enough, not being worthy or the denial of an Omnipotent Omnipresent Omni-intelligent source of my creation. For the purpose of ease let's call her GOD. If GOD is all of those "Os" and I was created in her likeness, am I not all of those things too? So when I participate in an action or belief that subliminally or outwardly states the opposite I am telling the Universe, Spirit, GOD that I don't believe that I was created in her likeness and that I am not enough or somehow unworthy. What I may be saying by participating in these actions is let me do this to amplify something that has no possibility of ever being amplified. IT IS ALL POTENT ALL PRESENT ALL INTELLIGENT. The only thing I can do to amplify IT in my life is to say yes; to acknowledge that I Am That.
Now that has been said lets tell a tale. This tale is a little bit on the Woo Woo side. Try not to judge me as I allow you to peak into my world of slight insanity. You don't have to believe all that I say here but do know that it has brought me a long way down the path of light and love.
This particular adventure started as a quest to discover what a shaman is. I had spent years listening to the "The Four Agreements" on CD where Don Miguel Ruiz referred to shamans and a shamanic way. In his book "The Four Agreements", Don Miguel Ruiz, writes about "surrendering to the angel of death". He mentioned a shamanic path as a way to overcome our "book of law " and to surrender to the "angel of death". I was curious, I had never heard of the term shaman. So in my down time I would Google shaman and read about them and their practices. I thought it might be an easy way to tackle my demons (agreements or book of law). Then I was compelled to find one, to meet one, to get guidance from one.
Of course the day I found a shaman was on a December full moon or the "Long Night Moon". I was sitting at my work desk getting ready to go home and for the hundredth time I decided to Google Shaman, Grayslake (that's the name of my town). Low and behold I got a hit. There was a shaman doing sessions at a healing facility in my town. So I called and they just happened to have one spot left, I took the appointment not knowing what to expect. Until that moment in time the closest I had come to having an energy healing session of any sort was reflexology on a cruise ship.
I arrived at my appointment, I sat down across the table from a normal looking white guy (not what I expected) and then the wild and crazy ride began. There were tears, laughter, spitting, choking, downloading of numbers and formulas, resetting of vibrational codes. I was told I was a pleiadian from another planet and that he and I have known each other in many life times. He cried as he told me how much he has missed me. I was told that I once was a powerful healer and that in this life time I would go to Colorado to bring in and anchor a new healing energy. He saw 2 powerful lights coming into the world which were near me. (My niece delivered a son that night and my daughter delivered a son a week later). He removed items from my energy body that only he could see, he fought with my ex-husband who was NOT in the room. This went on for 45 minutes. I don't think I uttered more than five words; I actually fell into a trance like state with my eyes open. The room had a yellow gold hue to it, his face morphed into many faces. The only thing I was thinking was WHAT THE @%^&* IS THIS! Then he gave me my sacred code. It was 6 pages of symbols and numbers. He stacked them in order, laid a sheet with the number 3.17 on the top and placed them in a plastic protector sleeve. I was told to sleep with it, sit on it, and drive while sitting on it. It was to become my companion. I was advised that the number 3.17 and the symbols would continue to unlock my vibrational code; they would change my current DNA. I left that night in the most profound and uncomfortable "WTF" I have ever felt. You know the kind that makes you laugh and cry at the same time.
I was dazed and in a state of shock. What had I just subjected myself to? I couldn't believe I had spent money on an insane man, with an insane message. Who was he, is that really what a shaman does? I never saw him again and he has never returned to that healing center. Sometimes I wonder if he was real.
So what does all of this have to do with an onion? As I was saying before, I have gone to great strides to gently rid my life of fear based beliefs and practices. I enjoy participating in ceremony to connect me to spirit; I love the smell of sage and palo santo as a reminder that I am made of perfect white light which clears all energies which do not vibrate at perfection's level. I love to enjoy the energy and medicine of crystals, mountains, lakes, rivers, oceans, prairies, animals, birds, the sky, the moon, the sun and the universe in its entirety. But I know, that I know, that I know that not one of those things makes me perfect, makes me magnificent or makes me whole. I was created whole, I was created perfect and I was created magnificent. It would be to deny my source, my spirit, my GOD, to think that any of those items can change or magnify the perfection of GOD. I Am the perfection of my creator; I just forget sometimes and need reminders.
This short paragraph is where I get to admit to my slight insanity. Here it goes... I was possessed to sit on that number and pile of papers for the past 2+ years? Why? I don't know, but I did so religiously. Whew I'm glad I got that off my chest.
Then a trusted mentor suggested to me that I needed to burn them. To say the least, I was powerfully triggered. My thoughts went something like this; what, noooo I can't burn them, they have My Power, My Number, My Symbols. What will happen? Will I become disconnected from my pleiadian download? As I continued my personal spiritual hissy fit I slowly began to see the light. Holy crap I was sitting on fear this whole time and I didn't even recognize it for what it was.
I am not the total sum of any number. My number is Infinite, I Am infinite. I tell people every day that I do not direct healings; I say that I facilitate healings from a source that is omnipresent, omnipotent, omni- intelligent. We are all created of THAT. We are all entitled to that perfection and magnificence. That slippery son of gun ego trapped me once again. I sat blindly on those numbers and wrote about being fear free, studied about being fear free, meditated on being fear free and taught about being fear free. How crazy is that? There went another layer of my infinite onion. Boy did that layer smell to high heaven as it fell off.
I guess it was time. I created a ceremony; I beat on my new drum, burned some sage, sprayed myself with Ohm spray, stuck a few crystals in my pocket, said a rosary, grabbed my prayer cards, played Ohm Namah Shivaya Ohm really loud and burned that pile of papers. I created a moment to allow myself to remember who I really am. A being of divine perfection.
By the way, if I was a number I would be pi. I have gone on to meet a few beautiful shamanic practitioners and I continue to school myself through books and classes on the shamanic path.
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Do you have any limiting beliefs that need loosed today? When we step away from fear and embrace the love, perfection and magnificence of our creator we find peace. Each of us have many layers of fear that tend to cover our connection to the infinite. Take a moment to look at your life, your practices, your beliefs. Are any of them telling the universe that you are not worthy or that you are not enough? It's time to gently shed them and let the universe know you are ready for the next level of love.
Virginia Adams is a Energy Healthcare provider. She is a Reconnection-Certified Practitioner and Reconnective Healing Foundational Practitioner. She has created and developed an energy healthcare practice. She is an entrepreneur, an artist and a public speaker. Virginia is full of passion for her work and her mission of helping others to tap into their perfection and magnificence. Reconnective Healing is known to transcends traditional energy healing techniques. It is neither a therapy nor a treatment. People may experience physical, mental, emotional and spiritual healing during these sessions. For additional information visit http://www.virginia-adams.com or email me at email@example.com