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Back to Square ONE

If my life could be depicted as a game of chutes and ladders, I would say that today I found myself back at square one. How did that happen, wasn’t I almost to the winner’s circle of enlightenment. Hadn’t I climbed my ladders and learned from my slippery slide down the chutes? How has the last 10 months of my life brought me back to this place, feeling like I am about to start the game all over again? Feeling like some HUGE adventure into the unknown is just one dice throw away. I found myself back to experiencing those age old thoughts and feelings that use to plague me regarding my life purpose. I say experiencing because all thoughts have their emotional charge, the sensations and/or emotional resonance which are manifested when you are immersed in a thought pattern. I know this band width all too well. It is similar to the intensity I use to feel when I would sob into my pillow during my 30 – 40s. In those days I just knew that I wanted more, but I was subsequently conflicted as to why the experience of being a wife, a mother, a daughter, sister, a manager, a friend and all the multitude of hats I wore were not satisfying my yearning to be or do something greater. Weren’t all of those important roles the purpose of my life? Today I can add healer, intuitive mentor, artist, grandmother and mother in law to the list of hats. Even with all of those absolutely divine additions, I have woken up again questioning my possible life purpose. The BIG QUESTION is back; what the hell is my quest, what is my life purpose. I know I was destined to do something magnificent, huge and over the top, why haven’t I found IT yet or better said why has IT not found me? This is the space where self doubt wants to consume me. It is where my loop of unworthiness plays itself out in the story of (i) am not enough. Am (i) here again because I started writing the book, the book which has been simmering in me for years? Am (i) afraid I will fail, who knows but "Here I Am Lord"!

I know all to well not to dwell in any band width of dis-ease so I took my BIG QUESTION to my sacred space, both physically and spiritually. As I sat in silence in my healing room and connected to my heart space I was given this awareness. We never arrive! And of course, I said that doesn’t help me one IOTA. Ha! a simple answer to a complex question. Here we go again. So I sat longer and listened deeper……. Where would you have me go, what would you have me do, what would you have me say and to whom would you have me say it? Then the REMEMBERANCE of who I AM and who I have always been came in loud and clear. I AM LOVE.

This voyage, this game, this quest for enlightenment is and will always be about the expression of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. There is no arriving, there is no finish line and there is no end game. If you are being drawn to this or that in your quest to become more aware of your divinity, seeking your life purpose and road to enlightenment, I hope you will remember with me that truly the one and only path, the one and only expression of self and life purpose is LOVE expressed in as many forms that you can possible conjure up and it all starts with self-love!

When I write a blog or an article, I do so in a word document and then transfer it to a template for emails and social media posting. As I was transferring this writing to this template, the first thing I did was fill in the title. As I wrote the word ONE, I was reminded that I am not on a solo quest. I was reminded that it is only through ONEness consciousness that we awaken to our divinity and connection to the Divine Spark. We were never intended to leave "Square ONE"! The slippery chutes of failure and the arm breaking ladders of success are just a diversion from our start and end point. They are part of the illusion.

Won’t you look past the illusion and remember with me today that we are not searching for love, experiencing love or creating love, but remember that.....


Now I am ready to start the game over, conquer the day, answer the all the emails, do the needed prep work for the week, make the needed calls, pay the bills, do the laundry and smile at the strangers who pass me by. Here I come world, watch out I am on a Quest!!! Can you hear me Roar.

I also reminded myself of a couple of earlier heart provoked messages which came to me earlier this year. I will rewrite them here so that I can continue to remember who I am.

“The way I see it (perceive it) is that only LOVE will save our souls, our lives, our nation and our world. I know it seems as if I have blinders on, like I am looking at the world through rose-colored glasses. Maybe I am, maybe that is the way we heal, we make amends; we discover our wholeness of being, we align with the vibration of our Creator and we become the frequency of LOVE.” - Virginia Adams

“It never ceases to amaze me the impact of our emotional encoding. The intricate webbing of lies that we develop as individuals, families, religious groups, societies and nations to convince ourselves that we are not enough, that we are not whole or that we are not worthy. As we unravel this web of lies we begin to see that the only "sin" here is that we believed or perceived ourselves to be disconnected from our Source. So we create another elaborate game to help us remember that we are whole, we are complete and that there is NO-THING or NO-ONE who can disconnect us from or diminish our connection to perfection. Simplify your life game, Love, know that you are a spark of God. Yes, yes, yes when we are in harmony with Spirit we begin to understand that we are and have always been right there enveloped in IT's embrace. Be at peace my sweet, be at peace. There is nothing to fix or figure out here. All is well!” - Virginia Adams


Virginia is a Reconnection-Certified Practitioner and Reconnective Healing Foundational Practitioner. Reconnective Healing is known to transcends traditional energy healing techniques. It is neither a therapy nor a treatment. People experience physical, mental, emotional and spiritual healing during these sessions. For additional information visit or email at

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